Saturday, February 23, 2013

A few of my favorite things...

While sharing my experiences with anxiety is good for me, and the idea that it -may- help others is encouraging, there actually are other thoughts/things happening in my life that would be nice to share.  Plus, if I -do- have any actual readers out there, it would be nice if I didn't bore them to pieces with panic talk!

So...on this lovely February afternoon, I thought I would list a few of my favorite things, in no particular order, that I may end up talking about from time to time on this blog...

- Cooking
- Baking
- Gardening
- Housekeeping
- Parenting
- Reading
- Country life
- My husband
- My children
- My family
- God/My faith
- Sunshine, fresh air, and flowers

I'd like to begin with sharing a recipe that I discovered the other day.  While searching for a good granola bar recipe, I stumbled across the smitten kitchen blog.  I haven't tried the great-looking recipe for granola bars that I found yet (still waiting to go to the store to grab a couple ingredients), but I also found this lovely whole wheat apple muffin recipe that had been adapted from a King Arthur Flour recipe.  My son had a friend coming over after school, so I thought it would be a great time to try them.  I ended up making a few adjustments to the recipe (I have a habit of doing that often!), which (I think) makes them a little easier to put together and doesn't require getting out the big mixer.  They turned out fabulous!  So fabulous, in fact, that my kids begged me to make another batch the next day.  They're packed full of wonderful flavor - warm cinnamon, sweet and tart apple, and delicious and moist buttermilk cake.

I tried to upload a picture, but my upload function isn't working quite right.  If you would like to see a few gorgeous pictures, head on over to the smitten kitchen blog - they're a lot better looking than my pictures would have been anyway(!)

Whole Wheat Apple Muffins
recipe adapted from Smitten Kitchen Blog's adaptation a of King Arthur Flour recipe

1 cup white whole wheat flour (Bob's Red Mill or King Arthur)
1 cup all-purpose flour
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp baking soda
1 tbsp ground cinnamon
1/2 tsp fine salt
1/2 cup unrefined (raw) sugar (could also use real maple syrup or brown rice syrup)
1/2 cup brown sugar, packed, divided
1/2 cup butter (1 stick) melted and slightly cooled
1 large egg
1 cup buttermilk
1 tsp pure vanilla extract
1 large granny smith apple, peeled and cubed

Preheat oven to 450 degrees.
In a large bowl combine flours, baking powder and soda, cinnamon, salt, raw sugar, and 1/4 cup of brown sugar.  In a small bowl, lightly beat egg and add buttermilk.  Add wet ingredients to dry and stir to combine (batter will be very thick).  Add melted butter and vanilla and stir to combine.  Finally, fold in cubed apple.  Line a12-cup muffin tin with paper liners, or grease and flour cups.  Drop the batter evenly into 12 cups and sprinkle remaining 1/4 cup of brown sugar on the top of each muffin.
Bake for 10 minutes at 450 degrees, then reduce the heat to 400 degrees, baking the muffins 5 to10 minutes longer, until a toothpick inserted in the center of a muffin comes out clean.   Cool the muffins in the pan for a few minutes, then place them on a cooling rack to cool completely.

That's the most difficult part for me - letting them cool!  These are so delicious and they're not _too_ bad for you, so it's okay that I just ate two, right?  Enjoy! :-)


Sunday, February 3, 2013

Beta Blockers are a Girl's Best Friend

Around the time I was a sophomore in college, I noticed my heart would start racing for no apparent reason, along with an occasional palpitation.  I had a blood test done and we found out that I was slightly hyperthyroid (my thyroid stimulating hormone was slightly low causing my thyroid gland to produce more hormone than it should).  While this seemed to help my metabolism, it was quite a bother.  My heart would start to race or palpitate, and in turn would give me a panic attack.  I'm not sure if they work hand in hand, but I've started to notice a correlation between when I'm hormonal and when I am most anxious.  I went to see an Endocrinologist (whom I continue to see presently) and while my TSH wasn't at a level that would require treatment of the thyroid gland itself, we could treat my symptoms of racing heart and palpitations with a beta blocker, which I could take on an "as needed" basis.  Also known as the stage fright drug, it has helped me immensely in the past years.  I did have to stop taking it during my three pregnancies, but in those moments when my heart starts to race and I begin to get those feelings of panic, it has been a big help.  I don't like to take it regularly as I'm not a fan of putting chemicals in my body so I usually wait until I know I need it.

The correlation between hormones and feelings of panic have been a focus of mine over the past couple of years.  I often notice my heart racing more and having increasing feelings of anxiousness around specific times in my monthly cycle.  If anyone is out there, have any of you noticed this in your lives?  If you haven't noticed, I would suggest to try keeping track for a couple months to see if you notice any kind of correlation.  I find that my anxiousness is a little easier to control when I can understand what is going on with my body.